My story in my tattoos!!

So this morning He took me to Psalms 52 through 56 which you can go read!! Following on from yesterday about my tattoos let me show you just how much God play’s a huge roll in your life when you don’t even know He is there!! This blew me away because I was thinking that I had screwed up with all these marks on my body as the OT does say not to mark your body!! However we are in different times from old and so God has to move with the times and come up with ingenious ways of getting His messages across!!

So my first tattoo was a “red rose” on the top right hand side of my back, I was 18 years old when I got it!! Little did I know that the red rose is very significant of blood sacrifice!! And funnily enough it was a slaughter man who did this, he slaughtered sheep for a living!! And oh was I indeed a sheep to the slaughter!! This was nothing more than an act of rebellion and because I could!!

My second one was a unicorn at the top of my left arm which I got when I was about 19.  Now the unicorn is very significant of the tribe of Ephraim and Ephraim means “fruitful”!! Also the unicorn in chains on the royal coat of arms is “Jesus Christ in chains” but that’s not all because the colours of this unicorn are “blue and yellow” these are the colours of King David’s flag, the sky blue with a Gold harp which is symbolic of the Psalms he wrote!! Also the “Unicorn” is an animal of great strength people say it is a wild bull, some say an antelope but never the less it is a sign of strength! It comes from the root word H7213 – To Rise, Be lifted up, to be high!! I got my ponies name under this as he was my rock when I was young and the first amazing blessing I received from God! There is nothing like galloping through God’s Land on the back of the most majestic animal He ever created!! Also my horse I have now has a Greek name which means – property of the King!!!! It broke my heart when I had to put him to sleep just before my 21st birthday!! I didn’t have a happy childhood it was filled with shite and trails!! I almost got my head chopped off at the age of seven! By a scythe or sickle and who carries a sickle?? Satan that’s who, he must have known what a pain in his arse a was going to be!! If I had been an inch taller or if the young boy who swung the sickle had swung it lower I was dead!! And I still have the scar in front of my left ear as a reminder of this!!!!

My third was a band of birds on my upper right arm which were red, blue and yellow. Again blue and yellow and red for Zara the other tribe of Judah! Guess what kind of birds they are?? Doves, the Holy Spirit descended on Jesus like a “dove” but that’s not all because when I got this done there were meant to be more doves but it was too sore so I said just stop at that as it looks like it goes all the way around my arm!! Guess how many?? Ten, yup ten people one for each Commandment!!!!

Then not long after that I got Japanese writing above and below the doves which says “Good Luck” but the most interesting thing about these letters is they look like the old and new letter for 60 in the Hebrew alphabet.  So 60+60= 120 or 12!! 12 tribes of Israel or the 12 apostles of Jesus!!

The next one was the one I spoke about yesterday His fingerprint on my back which I wrote this about:

“So I got this tattoo when I was in Israel in 1998 in Tel Aviv.  I was 23 years old and this just jumped out at me and I knew that I had to get this specific one even although I had no idea what it was or meant!! Also when it was done I never felt one bit of pain and anyone who has tattoos will understand the pain of hot needles ripping through your skin!! I got it at the bottom of my back! So in the centre is the spiral His very fingerprint, then we have 3 triangles or tabernacles which is a tent, each have a spiral coming from them!! One for the Word, one for the Son and one for the Holy Spirit because although God is a trinity in the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit there are 4 element which make this up, and remember there are 3 who bear witness in Heaven and they are the Father, the Holy Spirit and the Word, the Son is the Word.  John 1:1 – In the beginning was the word and the word was with God, and the word was God!!!! I have this verse tattooed on my right forearm but I will get to them in another post!! So I have the Father in the centre with the tabernacles coming from Him for the Word, the Holy Spirit and the Son surrounding God in the centre!! But that’s not the most amazing thing because the Y shape in the centre holding it all together is the Vav in the Hebrew alphabet and in early Hebrew it was a Y – the tent peg!! Today it is not written like that!! So I have God surrounded by all the elements which make Him up secured by the tent peg which secures and holds it all in place!!”

Oh we are just getting started wait until you hear the rest!!!!

Then I got a “Hamsa hand” on my right hand which is protection from the “evil eye” of satan. But the most interesting thing about this is it originated in Judaism (Judah) and in Hebrew it is “Hamesh” which means 5 and is associated with the Torah which is the first 5 books of the Bible: Genesis, Exodus, Leviticus, Numbers and Deuteronomy which is what these religious so call jews live by.  Now remember who put Jesus to death, it was these very people and He warned them if they live by these 5 books and everything written in them, then they will be judged on what is written in these 5 books!! You need to read the entire Bible because God’s words straight from Him are in books like Isaiah, Ezekiel, Jeremiah etc. God’s word is not just the first 5 books and remember there are things in these books which did not necessarily come from God but men added their own ideas to the laws etc.  That is why God came in the flesh to testify His Word the New Testament – Jesus Christ!! The 10 commandments are the LAW of God He tells us so many times to KEEP HIS COMMANDMENTS!! But that is not the most interesting thing about this tattoo because the hand has two love hearts with 4 spirals coming from them and 2 dots, these are hard to see now as the ink has spread out. Then we have the three main fingers which contain 10 dots between them!! So 10 dots and then add the 2 from the main hand and again we get 12 again!!!!

His Name in Hebrew below the hand

The next one is the one I got over 6 years ago when I had been off heroin for 5 days after a 20 year battle which I almost lost on many occasions!! It is the serenity prayer on the inside of my left forearm!! The moment I got this tattoo with God’s name on my temple, the demons of addiction done one and never came back.  This tattoo saved my life and brought me back into grace with God.  God had been such a huge part of my life growing up until I got passed teenage years when all the drinking, sex and drugs kick in!! Although I would argue that He never once left me because I would have been dead!! At my worst I was main lining into my groin 3.5 grams a day, which even by junkies standards is ridiculous!! I celebrated 6 years clean on 15th August this year, and never once have I looked back!! I have added a testimony below at the bottom which I wrote on fb 3 years ago!!

Then not long after this got the red rose covered up with a “purple water lily” surrounded by stars. The water lily or lotus flower is significant of “rebirth” and oh my has it been a rebirth back to God!! Also the “Fleur de lis” is a Lily and on the Scottish flag there are 12!! But that’s not the most incredible thing about this because my name in Hebrew is “Lily” and means to be bright, cheerful, be glad, joy and rejoice!! Rebirth from the slaughtered lamb!!!!

Then 3 years ago I got His name in Hebrew tattooed on my right hand between my thumb and first finger in front of the “Hamesh hand” and on my left hand in the same place I got Jesus in Hebrew which actually means “saviour and redeemer”!!!!

See photo above for God’s name on Hamesh hand

Now lets get into the scriptures I have which I covered a few weeks back with the number of the books, chapters and verses which all add up to a final reduction of 10!!!!!!! I have seven pieces all together between my right arm and left arm and one on the back of my neck these are as follows:

Upper right arm on inside of bicep

Isaiah 41:10  KJV

Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.

Some of these look wonky but it is only becasue I am taking these photos myself!

Inside forearm of right hand

1 Corinthians 6:19-20  KJV  (adds up to 46 – 46 chromosomes!)

What? know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own?  20 For ye are bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body, and in your spirit, which are God’s.

Above this I got

2 Timothy 1:7  KJV  (adds to 10!)

For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.

On the back side of my right forearm I have

John 1:1  KJV

In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.

Then on the inside of my left bicep I have

Psalm 23:4    KJV

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.

And on my back of my left forearm I have

1 John 4:4  KJV

Ye are of God, little children, and have overcome them: because greater is he that is in you, than he that is in the world.

Now the interesting thing about both of these on my left arm is they each add up to 9 I was born on the 9th January!! Also the serenity prayer in on this arm too!!

Then the last one on the top of my neck and back is:

Psalm 118:8   KJV

It is better to trust in the Lord than to put confidence in man.

This verse is in the middle of the Bible!! It is the chapter that is between the shortest chapter at 117 and the longest chapter at 119!! This is God’s message to us about His will bang in the centre of His word!! I also have my children’s names below this too!! Ellie means “God is my light” and Chloe is green in Greek!!!!

I picked these verses even before I understood the significance of God’s Word!! These verses remind me who I am, who I belong to and God’s will for my life!!!! People were like why are you getting tattoos of God’s word because the Bible says you shouldn’t mark your body or defile the temple of God!! But how can you defile God’s temple with God’s word???? This was me dedicating myself and my temple to Him exclusively!! Giving Him complete ownership of my being!! But the most remarkable thing about these tattoos is when I pray with my hands clasped above my head, my entire head is surrounded by a tabernacle or tent of His Word and let me tell you it is very peaceful in that tabernacle!!!!

I am now designing my last one which I won’t reveal until it is done but again is very very significant of God, His Word, His will, His Love and who He created me to be in this world!!!!

So you see things are never what they seem to be, God always has a hand in everything as the above proves without a shadow of doubt!!

Have a great day people and Praise the Lord because it is the 7th day until sundown tonight!! The day when He requires us Not to do our own will but do His Will!!!! His day of rest from ALL WORK!!!!

Love and Blessings in the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit


My fb testimony below which I wrote on fb 3 years ago!! I was a bit excited reaching this goal as you may be able to tell!! Lol!!

“Ok, so today is a very special day for me!! As 3 years ago today, I escaped the bowels of hell and kicked the demon heroin addiction, which had me locked in hell for 16 year on and off!!!!!!! I AM fuckin buzzing!!!!

So, have I had any urge to go back to it? NO FUCKIN CHANCE!!!! The devil had enough of my life and now I AM LIVING, so no, fuck that!!!!  I laugh at anyone who says God isn’t real, I WOULD NOT BE ALIVE IF HE WASN’T REAL, it’s as simple as that!!!!!!!

So, let me tell you how bad it was just in case you don’t believe!!  The only way I can describe it as a whole, is being stuck on a roller-coaster and not being able to get off, no matter what you do or how hard you try!!!! At my worst I was using 3.5 grams a day!!!!  Even by junkie standards that is fuckin ridiculous!! Considering 0.20 gram would probably make a normal person overdose, but there is no God!!  So, to put this into context, I was main lining 7 hits a day half a gram a hit!!!! Seems so fuckin mental looking back now, if there was no God then HOW AM I STILL HERE??????? 

My first week clean I got the serenity prayer tattooed on my forearm, which starts with GOD!!!! So, am I under any illusion that I did this by myself?? NO, no I AM not!!!! I also went back to my horses which was a blessing!!!! Don’t get me wrong it has definitely not been all plain sailing since then, but, everything which has happened has been so much easier to deal with and I will get into this in a minute!! When I look back, I AM filled with so much GRATATUDE to be alive!!!!!!!

So, what have a been through since a got clean??  Well let me tell you, probably more than all of my using days put together!!  The first year was pretty quiet, then 2017 was the year from HELL!!  It started with falling off a horse and breaking my shoulder 1st July, then had another fall off a different horse 1st Oct and broke my right hand, then just to top it all off I had another fall 18th Nov and crushed my T11 vertebrae and broke my ass!!!!  Yeah that wasn’t much fun let me tell you!!  The pain was fuckin unbearable, the doctor had no choice but to give me morphine, which of course was risky but did I get through it all??  YES, yes, I fuckin did I might have had broken bones but MY HOLY SPIRIT was still shinning through!!  See that’s the thing about shit that happens there is a lesson to be learned in everything and going through all that made me so much STRONGER, and it made me re-evaluate my life, which I hadn’t been happy in for years!!  So, then my 13-year relationship ended but to be fair it had been over for years, all this just highlighted and magnified everything that was wrong!! Which then led me to making better choices for myself!!  I now own an amazing horse who lights up my soul, kind of like when you see your baby for the first time after delivery!! Life is fuckin amazing now and has been since I started handing everything over to The Lord, the shit he has got me through this year alone is pretty fuckin impressive, I got away with not having insurance on my car, when I clearly told them I didn’t have it and had no intentions of getting it, wrote them a 2 page essay on everything which was wrong with their system and ripped apart the witness statement, also showed up in court with the full armour of God on to do my plea bargain!! The judge asked me if a had a lawyer to which a replied “No I am more than capable of speaking for myself thanks” he then asked if I was changing my plea to which I said NO!!  I then got a letter through the door saying they were just leaving it!!?? I will post the letter at some point; it makes good reading!! And there are loads more I could tell you but, I’ll save that for another day!!!!!!!  That’s the thing about the TRUTH, nothing or no one can stand against it, obviously God at my back had everything to do with it!!!!!!!  God has rescued me more times than I could write about!!!!  But let me tell you about the overdose coz that was mental, the doctors and nurses couldn’t believe I was still alive with the volume of pills I had taken or the length of time before I went to the hospital!!  They couldn’t pump my stomach so had to put me on a drip, they had me on standby to go to Edinburgh for a liver transplant, but I didn’t need it as yet again God stepped in!!!! So, don’t come at me saying God isn’t REAL, if anyone of you walked even 2 steps in my shoes you would soon change your mind!!!!!!!

So, where am I at now??  Well at the ripe age of 44, I have a body an athlete would be proud of and I AM more kick ass than I have ever been, I know, scary right!!!!!!! This year alone I have accomplished things I NEVER thought I would, tough mudder, rideouts, and just dealing with this SHITE SYSTEM which keeps us all enslaved!!!! Which with the knowledge I have I can rip apart!!!!!!! Do I worry about the future?? NO, no I fuckin don’t!!!!!!! Why? Because I AM FEARFULLY AND WONDERFULLY MADE IN THE IMAGE OF GOD!!!!!!! MY BODY IS THE TEMPLE OF GOD AND THE HOLY SPIRIT IS SHINNING THROUGH PEOPLE!!!!!!!


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